Janaa

Janaa, there are words I have been carrying for a long time words that have lived quietly inside me, waiting for the right moment. This is that moment.

I am sorry. Truly, completely, without condition. For every moment I fell short, for every time I hurt you without meaning to, for every word I should have said and didn't, I am sorry. You deserved better, and I know that.

And yet through all of it you stayed. You loved me when I was difficult to love. You were patient when I gave you little reason to be. You showed up, again and again, and that is something I will never take for granted again.

Thank you. For every quiet act of kindness. For every time you chose me. For the warmth you have always carried with you, and so generously shared with me. You have made my world softer and more beautiful simply by being in it.

Janaa, I want you to know and to feel these things as truth:

• I am yours. Completely, only, and always yours. There is no version of my life that doesn't have you at the centre of it.
• I will always be there for you in the small, ordinary moments and in the storms. You will never have to face anything alone.
• I will choose you every single day. Not because I have to but because there is no one else I would rather choose.
• I will keep becoming someone worthy of you. That is a promise I make to you and to myself.
• I will love you not just when it's easy, but when it takes everything I have. That is the kind of love you deserve, and that is the kind I intend to give.